May is a difficult month for me. We lost Scotty in May, 6 years ago. Even when I don’t want to think about it, subconsciously many things resurface at this time. The rains in Bangalore, timeline reminders of the last photo that we clicked together, random reminders of things that we did together, and involuntary reaction of my own body to the stress of it all. In all this, there are some other signs too that I believe is Scotty telling me he is looking out for me.
The time around the anniversary during the COVID lockdown was particularly difficult to navigate with the added stress of health concerns of loved ones and not being able to meet anyone. Smokey came to us that year on the date that we lost Scotty. It was not planned and the last thing I expected was to see a little Dalmatian trotting into my home. But that is what happened and my life was changed completely. Again! I firmly believe that this was Scotty looking after us and sending us love in stressful times.
This year too something happened that others might call a mere coincidence. But I believe in signs, especially when it is dragonflies. If you have read my blog on how the name The Scarlett Dragonfly came about, you would that Scotty was the main reason that I started blogging. The Dragonfly part in the name is a nod to him as I had started seeing Dragonflies too many times for it to be just a coincidence after I lost him. When I read up on the significance and animal totem for Dragonflies, the underlying theme seemed to be rebirth, new beginnings, hope, change, love, and guardian angels. I chose to believe that it was Scotty’s way of telling me that all would be ok.
This year I received 2 unexpected gifts in May – both dragonflies. The first was a beautiful bookmark from Cindy. Being an avid reader, this was a gift that I appreciated very much. The next was from Kaveri and came on the actual anniversary date. She had ordered a beautiful neckpiece for me 2 months ago but as fate would have it, I got it on 27th May. It was meant to be.
Both these girls are good friends and fellow bloggers too. While they know of my connection with the dragonflies, I believe the fact that these much-appreciated gifts came to me in May is more than a mere coincidence.
As they say, everything rests on your faith. It is our belief that helps us move forward. I choose to believe in the symbol of the dragonfly. I choose to take away the positives and not dwell on the reason why it became significant for me. It empowers me as a symbol of transformation & self-realization, encouraging me to have faith even in the face of difficulties.
What do you think of symbolism? Have you experienced any? Do they have deeper meanings or are they mere coincidences? Would love to hear your thoughts…